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angrbodaSo, week 5 day 1 went really well both times I did it, and I was only, according to the program supposed to do it once. Having thus doubled up, I decided to press on with day 2's program.
Mistake.
Once I was doing it, I didn't feel at all ready for it. It was so hard. Breathing-wise and stamina-wise it was okay-ish but only when going so very slowly that it was only really one notch up from fast walking. Evil Laura did say that more than anything it was a mental challenge. Well, I wasn't really up for that, clearly.
Previously, when she tells me that there is only 60 seconds to go, that's the time when I experiment with going a little faster if I can. Even if I can't, it's still a moment of relief because 60 seconds is nothing.
Today, though... Today, I actually considered cheating and slowing down early because what's a few seconds more or less? I have never before even had the idea that this was possible. Ever. I didn't cheat, but it disturbs me a little that I considered it. Luckily 60 seconds is nothing, so they're gone before I'm even finished debating with myself about it.
I didn't even feel particularly proud of myself for having managed 8 minutes twice. Just miserable and discouraged about how unreasonably difficult it was.
Next time is Wednesday. I shall have to decide with myself whether to press on with this day's program or turn it down to day 1 again for one more time.
*sigh* This too shall pass.
(crossposted from my own journal)
Mistake.
Once I was doing it, I didn't feel at all ready for it. It was so hard. Breathing-wise and stamina-wise it was okay-ish but only when going so very slowly that it was only really one notch up from fast walking. Evil Laura did say that more than anything it was a mental challenge. Well, I wasn't really up for that, clearly.
Previously, when she tells me that there is only 60 seconds to go, that's the time when I experiment with going a little faster if I can. Even if I can't, it's still a moment of relief because 60 seconds is nothing.
Today, though... Today, I actually considered cheating and slowing down early because what's a few seconds more or less? I have never before even had the idea that this was possible. Ever. I didn't cheat, but it disturbs me a little that I considered it. Luckily 60 seconds is nothing, so they're gone before I'm even finished debating with myself about it.
I didn't even feel particularly proud of myself for having managed 8 minutes twice. Just miserable and discouraged about how unreasonably difficult it was.
Next time is Wednesday. I shall have to decide with myself whether to press on with this day's program or turn it down to day 1 again for one more time.
*sigh* This too shall pass.
(crossposted from my own journal)
